Chapter 90: Ivy

Last time, I’d made my decision about the baby all by myself–well, with my parents’ help, I guess? But this time would be different. This time, I told Cirrus.

“I’m sorry,” he said, which I totally didn’t expect. I thought he’d be like, ecstatic? “I didn’t mean to.”

“It’s not your fault,” I said. “Well, I mean, it was your sperm, but like, on steroids or whatever. But…do you want the baby, Cirrus? Like, do you want to be a dad?”

“Yes,” he whispered, so softly I was afraid I’d imagined it.

“What–what do we tell Sage?” Why did I care what a kid thought? Even if he was my brother. But for some reason, I felt like…how did I feel?

“He’ll be happy,” Cirrus said, “but maybe sad too.”

Why would he be sad about becoming an uncle? What wasn’t Cirrus telling me? It was comforting, being in his arms, knowing he wanted this baby too–did that mean I wanted to be a mom, finally, even though I swore it so wasn’t my thing? Why now?

“Are you guys gonna do it right there,” Sage asked, like a tiny stalker, “or can I stay?”

“Sage,” Cirrus said, but I couldn’t deal with this right now. “You can always stay.”

I took a deep breath. “Hey, I kind of need to talk to the little twerp. Sorry–just the two of us, I guess. I have a lot to say.”

I was worried that Cirrus might be hurt, like I’d left him out, but he wasn’t. He’d probably had a lot of talks with Sage too, so now it was my turn–and unlike me, Cirrus didn’t have anything to apologize for.

“I understand.”

“I didn’t sneak into your boat-house and eat all your cupcakes and use your girly deodorant,” Sage said. “So you got nothing on me, sis.”

“What–ugh–” But I didn’t say anything else, instead waiting for Cirrus to leave.

“Okay,” I said, when Sage and I were alone. “Can we talk, seriously? Sister-to-brother, I guess.”

“You’re already talking.”

“No shi–obviously. But… Ugh, why is this so hard?”

“Because you let the same stupid thoughts fill up your brain for yearssss,” Sage said, “and now it feels like your skull’s gonna explode.”

I just…looked at him. How much did he know? How much had Cirrus told him? Or…had he always known? When I’d been pregnant with him, I could read minds. When he was born, I lost that power.

But what if I hadn’t lost it–what if it just went somewhere else?

I lowered myself to the dock–god, that’d be hard once I got bigger–and he did too. I prodded his maybe-telepathic head. “I’m pregnant.”

“No duh. I already know.”

I held my breath–and then exhaled. “How?” Were my thoughts flowing from my brain into his? Weird power, courtesy of a demigod like Cirrus?

He scooted so that he wasn’t facing me anymore. “Because you’re extra fat.”

“…I’m not showing yet, but thanks.” What did I say now? How could I apologize for something like that? “I’m sorry, Sage. I should’ve been a better sister to you.” Or a better mother. “But I was so young, and…” I was so confused. “And Mom and Dad were able to be there for you–unlike me.” I didn’t know anything, I was scared, I didn’t have Cirrus… “I know there’s no excuse, but…”

“You can’t change the past,” Sage said, “unless you’re a secret time traveler. So just be a better sister from now on, okay? You don’t have to be my mom or anything–I already have one. But don’t act like you hate seeing me when you don’t, and don’t stay away from me for no reason…”

“Deal,” I said. “You can come here whenever you want–I’m going to need like, a ton of help when I’m pregnant. I’m taking a break from acting, so I’ll be here or with Mom and Dad pretty much all the time.” The flowers that sprang up behind me in the human world would be too much of a bitch to edit out in post-production, so I was on indefinite maternity leave. “And I want my kid to know their uncle.” Or big brother.

“You do…?” Why did he sound so surprised?

“Of course I do. And, like, you’ll be even closer in age than you and I are, so you’ll practically be like a big brother.”

He threw his arms around me. “I’ll be the best big brother-uncle ever. You’ll see, Ivy.”

“I know you will.”

And just like that, all my pregnancy-related fears evaporated. Like I’d gotten Sage’s permission to learn how to be a mom for the first time–like it mattered more than I knew.

After spending some more quality brother-sister time with Sage, I found Cirrus napping in his forest hut. “We’re doing it,” I said. “The parent thing, I mean. It’s happening. If you want?”

“We can have the baby?” he asked. “Can it live here in my forest?”

“Sure–but we’ll have to take it to the human world sometimes too so our kid’s not a really weird little shut-in. I bet Sage will kidnap his new niece or nephew and teleport them all over the world without our permission anyway.”

“He probably will,” Cirrus said, not sounding worried at all.

But I wasn’t too concerned either. I was tired, but I was happy–and hopeful.

This time, I knew we made the right choice.

17 thoughts on “Chapter 90: Ivy

  1. Woops, no touchies the paper airplane until ur done 👀
    This was a lovely chapter, I really liked the sister-brother heart to heart; Sage is one wise little mofo. He’s going to be a 10/10 uncle, and definitely kidnap this baby 😈

    I hope it’s a whole litter of golden beetlings.
    Make a beet salad!

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  2. Ivy finally knows Sage knows without them actually saying it. When she finally put the pieces together and realized he could read her mind, she probably loved him even more because of it. He let her know in his way it was okay and he was okay. He is awesome and allowed her to finally make peace with her decision. It was definitely a long time coming though …. and sweet Cirrus, just walking away so she could have the time with him to do that.

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    1. ❤ ❤

      Ivy and Sage handled the situation as well as they possibly could, I think. Some things could be left unspoken even if they both knew the truth.

      Ivy's really lucky to have Sage and Cirrus around her.

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  3. Sigh…I love them!

    Sage is the best! And he’ll be the best brother-uncle ever!

    Lol! He didn’t eat those cupcakes or use that girly deodorant. Sure, Jan. 😏

    I wonder if they’ll have a girl now. I kind of wish for a boy. We need two shit eating clowns in this story! 🥳

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  4. Dark WitcHazard: Sage is MPC (Most Precious Character) this gen hands down. What is not to love about this little troublemaker!

    Lover WitcHazard: If it wasn’t for the fact that my line of hairy hunks is over I’d appreciate this chapter a lot more. #BringHairyStridersBack😍

    Shipper WitcHazard: Ivy is gonna make a feast mom and finally enjoy her family like she’s always wanted I’m gonna cry! You did it Sage you did it!😭😭😭😭

    Nooboo WitcHazard: I should have known the nooboos train would only last so long now the wait continues!

    Anti Shipper: Due to the fact they were brought together by the forces of their child’s shenanigans I’ll give this ship a pass! I need to get back into hating ships I giving too many passes lately.

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    1. Aww, MPC. ❤ LOL, and you never know, Sage could be a bit hairy when he grows up!

      Sage is even better at this matchmaking thing than Dr. Puck. Dude could take notes from this kid.

      One more chapter left, but there'll be at least one more nooboo, promise! 😉

      And ooh, another ship pass from Anti! LOL.

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